Well it transpires that what we understood from the hospital wasn't quite right. My lovely MacMillan Nurse rang today.
I WILL have lymph node biopsies (which means removing the lymph nodes) They will try and find the sentinel lymph node but the previous operation might have disrupted the flow. In which case the might remove two or three but hopefully not all of them as 'that has quite important consequences'
My operation is scheduled for 31st January, almost 2 months since the last one and I fear what may have happened in that time. I have sobbed, I have felt angry but at the end of the day there is absolutely nothing I can do. I cannot change the date, the treatment plan or the outcome so I can either mope and sob and scream and be angry until the 31st or I can just get on with life because the outcome will e the same no matter what. So that is what I plan to try to do. It's not easy, but I will try. Because I can't live another 25 days in this state.
On to other things because Lord only know there has to be other things.
Yesterday - before we knew the lymph node stuff when I still felt positive - we went to see the Narnia exhibition at Mottisfont and it was magical.
Cue photo overload
Little wardrobes were included in the decor at the entrance and there was a wardrobe gate
There were wardrobes int he woods with scenes like this one of Mr Tumnus' House
Inside it was all Narnia themed so beautifully
Peter and Edmund's room
Lucy and Susan's
The wardrobe into Narnia
and going through the wardrobe
They had an exhibition of the original illustrations which are rarely seen outside the USA
and the Whistler Room became Cair Paravel and Aslan's room
It was a truly magical experience.
No scrapping I can share yet
But I do have some art
Today I am thankful for
- having this dreadful thing picked up early to give me a fighting chance
- faith - it is all, alongside Nigel, that is keeping me going
If you are a praying type - pray I find the strength to get through this both physically and emotionally. I need all the help I can get
Dear Karen
Your journey almost exactly mirrors mine 14 years ago. I know how hard it is for you but keep your chin up and remain as positive as you can. You can do this xx
Posted by: Janet Dunn | January 06, 2023 at 11:10 PM