A very positive negative day

I feel that much has been on hold recently. I haven't been able to plan - and you all know I am a great planner - things and have felt so down as I was worried.

I was waiting for tests that took place today and they included biopsies as there was a significant chance that the problems I had were cancerous. So the last two weeks have been a tad difficult. However, after some very unpleasant procedures today,  the consultant thinks it looks good. I have to wait for the results of the biopsies but I feel more able to plan now. I don't feel brilliant, but I feel brilliant, if you know what I mean.

It's a strange thing, but I was never truly worried about the diagnosis being cancer (obviously I didn't want it to be but that wasn't what terrified me. Maybe it should have been.)  I knew if it turned out to be cancerous it was a treatable form with a good prognosis and I knew the Lord would give me the strength for whatever lay ahead, but i was terrified of the treatment that would be needed. I was worried about the ops that would have to take place. So I am glad that it now looks far less likely. So although I feel sore, I feel elated. I know I still have to wait but he was very reassuring.

 

So my photo of the day is the hospital. Good job I took it as I went in as I was in NO fit state to take it when I came out. I am a fainter at the best of times and I can honestly say I don't think I have ever felt so ill as when I tried to leave the hospital. I simply couldn't make it to the car and had to sit in the cold - it was zero degrees - with a plastic bag to throw up in and wait for Nij to bring the car round to me. I think it was shock, relief, pain and all too much. But 'tis done and that is the main thing.

 I have a new page to share today which I made last night. It was for the UKS House challenge and was to use a specific colour combination. I had such fun with it. Look at that little girl and that big poppadom! And isn't her hair the most wonderful colour ever!

 

Today I am thankful for

• Hopefully not having to have a big operation and deal with the disease we all fear

 

 My one minute devotional page today is

I asked my daughters Caeli and Corinna to hang up their jackets. “Sure,” said three-year-old Caeli, who hung her jacket on its hook. “Ugh!” said five-year-old Corinna, throwing herself onto the couch. “It’s the same every day! Why do I have to hang it up every time I come home?”

Later that same day, I sat reading to the girls while they colored: Caeli drawing circles with whatever colors were in front of her and Corinna complaining that she didn’t have the colors for a true full rainbow. Eventually, I put the children’s storybook down to continue my Bible study. The girls enjoy being read to regardless of the story, so I began reading aloud from chapter two of Paul’s letter to the Philippians: “Do everything without complaining or arguing.”

Suddenly Corinna stopped coloring, looked up, and asked, “Are you sure that’s in the Bible?”

Laughing, I repeated the verse, assuring her that I wasn’t making it up. She decided that if it was really in the Bible, she needed to learn it. So we wrote the verse on a piece of paper and started memorizing it. Not only did Corinna recite the verse at dinner, but she also called her grandparents to recite it for them.

Corinna’s behavior hasn’t changed overnight, but she’s moving along the right path. Now she understands that these are God’s rules, not just Mommy’s. When she complains, we repeat the verse and try to think of the positive aspects of the situation. What a great daily reminder for me, too!

Comments

[Jimjams]

{{{hugs}}}

[Val]

So sorry you have had to go through this, hopefully everything will be OK.

[Mary B]

{{{{{{{{{{{huggles}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Karen so glad things look more positive but so sorry that you felt so bad afterwards.

[Scrappyjen]

Thankful that everything is ok. Jenx

[mary]

It’s good that your consultant is thinking along those lines, and now you are one more step nearer to finding out, as I said in yesterday's post, I know how it feels waiting for results. I like your page, and yes she does have the most gorgeous color of hair.Take care karen.

[Jules]

Take care, wishing you all the best xxx

[Jen Hart]

Lots of positive thoughts from here Karen. I'm glad that that ordeal is over for you and such a serious diagnosis seems not to be on the cards.

[Lizzie]

Poor you... Glad your consultant thinks it is okay though. Tests are not nice and I am sure I'd have been just as wobbly, if it had been me. It's hard to be brave when you are worried - and waiting for tests and procedures is always long enough to give you plenty of time for worrying!
I'm glad for you, that it's all done now. I hope that the results prove that all will be well and that you can now get on with recovering quickly.

That's a great scrap page - especially those lovely photos.
And your Inspirational story today is really good. How wonderful that the mum managed to find something that "clicked" so well for her little girl. I think I should write out that verse and learn it too!

[Tammy]

Said a prayer for you!!

[TinkerHsmilton]

Sending you lots of love and reiki

[Sarah S]

Oh Karen. So sorry to hear what you're going through. Here's hoping for a happy ending xxx

[Sandi]

I'm sorry you are dealing with the possibility of the "C" word. I'm almost 65 and two years ago I waited for 6 weeks for biopsies to come back. I was greeted with the distressing news that I had melanoma. Still battling...

Good luck to you!

[HeatherC]

Praying for you Karen!

[Dawn Cheshire]

Thinking of you Karen, sending hugs!

[sandra]

My love and prayers are with you. xxx

[Val]

Thinking of you Karen and sending you lots of hugs. Try to enjoy the weekend and the school hols. Treat yourselves if you can, you both deserve it. Luv Val xx

[Barb in AK]

So sorry you weren't doing well after the testing, but happy to hear there is great hope that all is well. I will keep you in my prayers, lovely lady :-)