Today has been a busy olf day.
I spent some time in school as I know I won't be able to tomorrow or probably Tuesday so there were things I needed to get done.
I spent some time shopping for some new holiday clothes as after tomorrow trying on clothes is going to be a no no for a few weeks. That was good as I got some new Park sandals (What are Park sandals I hear you ask ... they are sandals perfect for traipsing the theme parks in 90 degree heat) and some pretty t shirts. I got this one in three different colours as it was so prettya nd is the sort of cotton that just washes so well.
I had my lunch in the garden with my factor 50 on (I was such a sun worshipper but those days are gone now. No more sitting in the sun without extreme protection and only for very short periods)
and then this afternoon I have worked solidly and got so much done I feel much better.
It has all helped take my mind off tomorrow a little.
I am scared to death as the current scar hasn't fully healed and is still very tender. I know this will be bigger - bigger than 3 1/2 inches, bigger that 8 external stitches and a mess of internal ones. I know it will hurt. I know it will be difficult to move again. But I am so lucky. They believe they got it all last time so this time is to check and be sure (fingers crossed they were right and what they take out tomorrow will all be clear) It is on my back so actually I never have to look at it (I know that is hard whilst it is healing where I want to check it all the time but at least I don't have to see the scar every day for the rest of my life. )
It is on my back not on my face or my arms or legs. I mean how often do I ever show my back to the world. rarely. So I am lucky it is where it is. I am lucky it was found quickly. I am lucky it was in situ. I am lucky they think they have it all.
So many people are hit each and every day with the 'C' word and they are not so lucky. They have to have very invasive surgery and chemo and radiation and eben then the prognosis may be poor. It is a vile, horrible disease and I don't think there is anyone I know that hasn't been touched by its cruelty in some way or other by losing a friend or a loved on.
So whilst I am nervous (OK Terrified!) I am so very very thankful for where I am with it all. I feel truly blessed.
I have a new page to share today - another digital made with Dawn Inskips new collection Bedrock and also another of her art laytered templates.
The page is about Tiny the lion. I kid you not. His name truly is Tiny and he lives at WHF with his two brothers and he is anything but tiny.
Today I am thankful for
- being very lucky
- endless support from family and friends and colleagues
- shopping - always good