My opportunity to blog today is going to be brief I’m afraid, so I will post something very close to my heart at the moment.
Many years ago my very best friend in the world, Jakki (You may know her as her alter ego Frenchy) gave me one of the most precious gifts ever when I was going through a very bad time. (And times have not been fab this past week for all sorts of reasons both at work and not at work actually)
It was a set of lyrics – the words to a song, and since then those words have been a guide for my life; a focus that has seen me through some very tough times.
I decided long ago
Never to walk in anyone’s shadow
If I fail, If I succeed
At least I’ll live as I believe.
No matter what they take from me
they can’t take away my dignity.
Because the greatest love of all
Is learning to love yourself.
In our lives there are times when we have to make tough decisions. There are times when we want to scream and shout to the world. When we want to protest our innocence, explain our decisions, make people understand, clear our names. Times when we are not sure we can cope with the demands on us, on our time, on our thought processes. But do you know what. I believe there are two people, and two people alone, that I have to answer to – and I have to make sure that whatever I do I can answer to them both. And those two ‘people’ are God and myself.
I need to be able to look myself in the eye at the end of the day and know that what I did I am happy with; that I have a clear conscience about my actions. I need to know I have done the best I could possibly do. If I haven't finished all my work by the end of the day - as long as I know I have done as much as I can, that's fine. And the inspectors - well they can just accept it.
Whatever anyone else may feel, whatever tough times are ahead in all aspects of my life at the moment, that is what I am trying to do. Not just yesterday. Not just today. Not just tomorrow. But every day.
My wish for each and every one of you is that you have something dear to you to hold onto when your life gets tough. Whether you are a person of faith and it is your faith that sustains you, whether it is a quote or a poem or whether it is a loved one who is always there for you. I am lucky – I have all three.